Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Life {altered}

My world has been changed, shattered, and impacted. My eyes have been opened, and its so hard to ignore once you have truly SEEN.
I know so many of my friends and family are sick of hearing about it. But once you have opened your ears, eyes, and heart to knowing the TRUTH - its hard to back down, to let it go.
I mentioned in the previous post about the shoes that we had the opportunity to meet with the missionary from Ethiopia that we were able to provide shoes to the children she serves. In this meeting with her I learned so much! I thought I knew, I knew a little bit of the ugly truth that daily inhabits this world. But honestly, I didn't realize... Childrens parents sending them on buses at the age of 6 to go and work to care for themselves. Young boys working to provide for their mothers and siblings as they are viewed the "head of the household", the lack of food, the lack of clean water, the dangers of the world that surrounds them daily. I am sure its going to be even more of an eye opener when we are actually there. But my heart has been broken for these children. Its so hard to just turn away unchanged and not feel a sense of obligation to do SOMETHING. I have no clue how so many in our world can go on daily and ignore these things. How can you know children are starving another country away and not feel guilt by wasting food?? How can you know people in another country have no access to clean water and as you brush your teeth continue to run the faucet nonstop, or leave the shower running for long periods of time before getting in?
My life has been changed. I no longer brush my teeth and allow the water to run. I no longer waste my food. I take everything home and make myself eat the leftovers.

What stinks, is I am not bragging about any of this. Truth is - I hate hearing the sound of the toothbrush on my teeth - I like to run the water so I can't hear it. I sometimes hate leftovers- certain foods are just not meant to be reheated. Once your eyes have been opened, it makes you sick to think of the things these children are facing another world away from here. Its hard not to think how lucky I am that I was born in America. That simply because of the location in which these children were born - that they were faced with such despair. It could have easily been me or you....
I pray that everyone who reads this will consider those in need more, and yourself less. Do the little things in your life to make a change. Don't take the little things for granted, that could mean the world to someone else. Make a difference.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Fundraisers for Christmas Shopping!!!!

Please consider shopping one or both of these fundraisers to help us continue to raise our funds for our adoption costs!

We are doing a Scentsy fundraiser with Kyra Hawkins... all profits will go towards our adoption costs! We are hoping you will do some Christmas shopping with us in this fundraiser. To place your order you may contact me, or order online at: http://kyrahawkins.scentsy.us and you will select Huff Adoption Journey under her picture on the right side of the page to shop.  

The Scentsy November Specials are: BOGO Scentsy Buddies, BOGO antibacterial fragrance foam, 10% off peppermint dreams (scent of the month), and 10% off Holiday Lights warmer of the month.

Sherri Peters a Stampin' Up! consultant has a group of women that is called "Inking for Others" and they make Card Kits to sell to benefit others. They have chosen us to do Christmas Card Kits for. The kits are $25 for 15 cards (5 designs- 3 of each card) $20 of that goes to our adoption fundraising, the other $5 goes for supplies. We need all orders in by November 18th. Below is a photo of the card designs! These are some precious women, who just love making cards and are so talented at it! It was such a blessing that they offered to do this for us. Please contact me as soon as possible if you plan to order some cards, it helps us to keep her in the know of how many to plan to make. This is their website if you want to check it out: www.inkingforothers.blogspot.com
 

Sunday, November 4, 2012

How He Loves Us...

"If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth." 1 John 3:17-18 
Many of you remember when I had asked for others to join with us in putting shoes on the feet of street children in Ethiopia. Well these are feet that are no longer bare in the above photo (actual feet of one of our sponsored children). I was blessed with sitting down and chatting with Rebecca (the missionary that we sent the money to for the shoes) today and learning about each of the children we sponsored shoes for. I cannot begin to express to so many of you the need that is in Ethiopia. I thought I had an idea of how rough it was for these kids... but honestly we have no clue. So many of these children we learned about today are 8-12 years old, many of them living on their own. They go to school, beg, and sell gum in the streets for money to live. They pay their own rent, and for their own food - which sometimes doesnt come often. They often go without eating. I just cant imagine any 8 yr old I know fending for themselves on the streets in Ethiopia. Some of them still live with their mothers and siblings, and they are considered the head of their household - and have all the responsibility that title entails on their shoulders. Some were shipped to Addis from the countryside at the age of 6 on a bus, all alone, to find their own way of caring for themselves. It breaks my heart, and I wish I could take them all in. We are earnestly praying for God to show us what we can do to make a difference, other than adopting. Honestly adopting a child, does so much for that child in giving them a family, but it really doesn't do much for the country of Ethiopia as far as making improvements to better and make a difference there.
I wanted to share some photos that Rebecca shared with me of the children getting their shoes! We were actually able to get each child a pair of shoes, 2 pairs of socks, and 2 pair of underwear also! I am wanting to post and say a HUGE thank you to everyone who partnered with us to make a difference! I was so blessed today in getting to see these children's faces in the photos as they were looking at the shoes.
Rebecca said they couldn't believe that they just got to go and pick out ANY shoes they wanted. They never in their lives have had an opportunity like this. One child who had holes in his pants and that they were falling apart, she was actually able to get him 2 shirts and 2 pairs of pants, as well as all the same things the other children got as well. I plan to post about the children and their stories later, but tonight wanted to go ahead and share the photos of them getting their shoes. Once again, THANK YOU SO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO WAS A PART IN THIS!















Monday, October 22, 2012

Heart to Give...

This weekend as I was driving, a random memory popped into my head and I was reminded of a time where my heart was changed.
While I was driving I began thinking of Mexico, since my mission trips there - my mind often goes back to the country that opened my eyes and the people who changed my life.
My 2nd trip to Mexico to Guadalajara - we went to one of the colleges to minister to college students, and help them practice English.
While in Mexico we were made aware of something that is common there. When you compliment something that belongs to another person, they most likely will hand it over to you as a gift. Well us Americans, compliments are a way to greet someone and start conversation. We often would catch ourselves in the middle of a compliment to avoid the other person giving up their belongings. Well without thinking - I didn't catch it!! There was a young women who I was speaking with, and I just could not help but notice how beautiful her earrings were... and you could see it in her eyes - she LOVED them, you could see her pride in wearing them. And you could tell she just "felt pretty". So I just felt led to tell her how pretty she looked and her earrings were so beautiful. In that moment I just thought, GREAT what did I just do. As we stood there, this girl who was BEAMING from wearing these beautiful earrings, tells me how they belonged to her grandmother and her grandmother just recently had given them to her as a gift for her birthday. Then - she starts taking them out!!! I was like please, please, please keep them! I didn't intend for you to give them up - I don't want them. But she told me, they mean so much to me - I loved them - but I would rather you enjoy them. ***Note I would not take the earrings, it was not my intention. I told her it would mean more to me for her to continue to wear them. I just wanted to make sure she knew someone noticed how proud she was of them and how pretty she was. So in me saying that she kept them, THANK YOU JESUS! I would have felt so terrible.
But as I think back on this amazing selflessness. How many Americans who have SO much more than this young girl, would have selflessly offered something like that? Something that meant so much to them? As a society we are taught to hoard important, expensive, or special things. I can tell you right now that if this generosity had become accustomed to America - how many people would never wear their prized possessions or expensive items?? I know for me - something my grandpa had given me would definitely be hidden in a closet! Or how many of us would leave our expensive iPhones or iPads at home in fear of someone indirectly asking for them. And my second thought was how many people in America would instantly take advantage of this generosity??? And would begin complimenting people always just to get their stuff??? Makes my heart break for our nation. Why is it that "things" are so much more important than people??
It blew me away, that Mexico - a country of poverty like I've never seen in America - could be so giving!!! That even though they have so much less, they have so much more!!! They have IT! They have grabbed a hold of that knowledge that people mean more to them than anything in this world!
My heart longs for this generosity in myself!!!! I wish to have a heart that puts value in people, not "things". I want to be a giver! I pray this for our nation as well... that somehow a change would happen and Christians would grab a hold of this concept and begin to GIVE.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

You make... All things, work together for my good!

(I know this is lengthy - but please read to the end... its worth it!)
I have been wanting to write this post for awhile now. But every time I come to type it... I just sit here and stare at the screen. I think mostly out of fear, and also to avoid hurting others. I want to preface this now, that I do not intend for this blog post to be hurtful to anyone in anyway. I am simply being open and honest. It's so hard, because of these things, to share. But something deep down in me longs to share my story. One, because other than God speaking to us to adopt - this is probably the clearest word God has ever spoken to me, and Two - because I want to share this amazingness that God has so creatively worked out for good! Something that Satan meant to bring me down, to harm me, to be something that has been a struggle for me for a LONG time... God made it beautiful. Mostly I just want others to know and understand, that ALL your junk and hard times... God can make a beautiful masterpiece of it. You may not be able to fully see it at first, but He will show you one day. Just like he did me. So if your going through some hard times right now, tell yourself, he is going to do something crazy amazing with it all... and wait with anticipation.

In our women's bible study at church, we have been talking about Elijah and the altar - when God provided the fire. We had been challenged to think of that ONE thing, the thing that so many of our "symptoms" come from, and to offer it as a sacrifice to God. By symptoms I mean so many of the things we feel one a daily basis that aren't from God... Insecurity, Fear, Anxiety, Depression, and the list goes on. All these things are signs of a deep rooted problem, they branch out from something much deeper. They aren't specifically the problem. But what is IT?

For me, it is fear of abandonment.
This is something I have so ridiculously struggled with for a long time. When my parents divorced, my dad just left. Didn't say anything to me, just went to the house, got his belongings that he wanted while I was at school, and left... I honestly didn't hear from him for quite a while after he left. (Please know, I love my dad - this is just part of my story - I do not say this to make him look bad - this day, this time... its made me who I am, and all part of my story and explaining this helps you to see) You see that moment in my life, I felt abandoned. I felt left behind like his belongings he decided not to take with him. And something from that time stuck with me. A small voice always saying, their gonna leave you. Why try and let them in, its only a matter of time before their gone.
This time in my life as I have shared before was a struggle. Not long after this happened. My grandpa passed away from brain cancer. Once again, I was left. Not by choice, but still had the same heart wrenching feeling.
I am not sure if anyone has seen the show One Tree Hill, but I have always been able to relate to Peyton. "People always leave." I am not saying this to be hurtful to anyone, but its just how I felt. I have had some very close friendships  and relationships where people just cut me out. It hurts.
All these things have added up to this deep rooted fear of abandonment that I have struggled with for so long.
This is my sacrifice, this is the center of all my symptoms. The one thing I have allowed to determine so many things in my life, I let it effect my thoughts - trust - relationships - even my relationship with God at times. I had learned to build walls, not let people in - just to avoid the hurt when they were gone. This had effected much more of my life than I ever understood.
As we went on talking about our sacrifice, our pastors wife told us to seek out God's word that changes this negative. What is the word he has for me, that changes this ugly to good?

And here is the best part of all of it...
He quietly spoke to me as I prayed about my word for this issue.... "I already gave it to you"... John 14:18 "I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you." (our verse on all of our adoption stuff!)  And then God so clearly spoke to me, this is why you have a heart for adoption. I hurt for the orphan, because I had felt their pain. Not in the same sense, as I had my mother. But I had felt and could identify with that abandonment. And God continues to speak this verse to me, that He will not leave me - He is COMING TO ME! What an awesome thing, in Him making this ugly hurts/past into beauty. He is making all things work together for my good. Even though those things hurt in my past, God is using it to help me understand my future child, to feel what they feel, and also this is what has caused my heart to be drawn to the orphan. This is the reason we are adopting, so ALL of this - the good and bad - this is what started my family. And I could not be more thankful for God opening my eyes to see it. To understand myself more than I ever have before.
The song below seems fitting for this post :) 

Thursday, September 13, 2012

New Fundraiser (Decals for Africa)

Hey Everyone :)

We are doing another fundraiser. Selling $6 Car Decals, but they dont have to be limited to cars! You can put them on mirror, laptops, and iPads! Anywhere really :) All profits go towards our adoption costs!(To purchase one of these, please go to the Donate button on our blog, in the purpose section put "DECAL" and be sure to give $1 for shipping - also be sure the address listed is the one you want us to mail your decal to)

I love this fundraiser, just because it will cause people to think, and could be a great conversation starter when someone asks why you have the decal! Great opportunity to share our story as well as encourage others to advocate for orphans, and to simply spread awareness!! 

These are not our exact ones, just an example I found on google. But ours will be similar to this design. (We're getting them Friday, and I will add our photo)

On another note September 6th was our 2 months on the waiting list. I've seen on lots of blogs lots of children coming home!!! This makes my heart happy, and I hope our next possibly 22 months fly by!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Fighting Battles

So my pastor preached Sunday on this subject... and I just cant seem to stop thinking about it. Without going into a whole lot of detail... life is has been hard lately... hard emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. None of it has to do with our adoption or anything like that. It has all stemmed from my current job. I don't feel like I should go into detail and share. But it's just been ridiculous lately, and I feel like no matter what I do I can't win.
And I sit back and just have this deep desire for someone to fight for me.
You know that feeling where you feel like you've given it all you got, and you just want someone else to jump in and fight FOR you!
Picture this,  you're in a fist fight with someone, this would be the point where you fall to the ground... and someone else steps in and finishes what you were trying to do, as you watch from the pavement - them fighting YOUR fight.

I've struggled with this lately, I just have been praying that God would fight for me. That he would go to war on this for me, and defend me. And I've been disappointed.... Please note that sometimes God does fight for you - and he may be in your situation - and I never want to cause someone to think that God will not be the one who does fight for you... because he does! But in this situation, he silently spoke to me.... I'm not going to fight FOR you, I want YOU to fight this battle... but I am here to fight WITH you! Not going to lie, when God told me this... my first response was disappointment. I'm honestly so tired of fighting. For those of you who know me, lol, seems like my whole life I have been "fighting"... this girls is ready to put down the gloves, ready to retire! She is ready to have a "water break"... I am picturing Rocky right now, and I am just wanting one of those in the corner pep talks from my coach, getting bandaged up and water... not ready for Round 2 just yet. But God continues to remind me, that he is my Coach, and he has been at each fight, each practice, and each "after the fight" bandaging... he's watched every blow, every knock out, every time I've gotten back up... the whole time, WITH me - cheering me on, giving me pointers, and simply being a fan. You see, the important part of all that.... he was with me the whole time... God isn't going to just be an innocent bystander that steps in does all the dirty work, and walks away. He is there for all of it. Isn't that more important than the quick fix defender we so often long for???

Although I mainly wrote this post about fighting... I still very much think this video applies as well. (Please watch below)You see this Coach very much could have let him continue to believe "he couldn't do it" and could have let him continue believing he wasn't capable. But instead he proved to him he could, by pushing him to his max. Not only that, but the most inspiring thing to me in this entire video, is the Coach crawling on the ground with him, encouraging him... I pictured me and God here... I'm whining saying "It hurts, I can't do it any longer"... but he's there telling me to keep going. This Coach was fighting WITH him! Every time I watch this it brings me to tears.... we get so defeated and give up so easily! So let's keep fighting! Endure to the Endzone as Pastor put it on Sunday... we just keep fighting, keep pushing, til one day... we realize were in the endzone.